All is Vanity

闘病を乗り越え、父の奇跡の生還から1週間、 父の姉が逝去。 本日、急遽お通夜。 これ以上年内は何も起きないでほしい。 本当に、最悪な一年だった。 当たり前に過ごせる日々を幸せと思うことができず、 見えない何かが足りないとばかりに日々を満足せず、 家族や周囲に対しても負のオーラをまき散らす。 来年の目標は、もう少し自分を好きになること。 できるかな。

He has ever conquered numerous monster waves and won the world championship 3 times. We still believes that he was a super human, truly genuine athlete. But just one mosquito bite killed him so sudden. He died of dengue fever at the beginning of this month. Life is so ironic.

Here, you'll touch the universe..... Nothing costs so much as what is given us.

Where is my son?

The way BJ stares at Matt reminded me of that of Ensen. BJ is totally back!　

My NIKE+ didn't work properly today.   Although I had changed the unit to brand new one, it hasn't fanctioned right. There's still something wrong with it. The record I made is supposed to be connected to twitter as soon as  I connect my iPod to NIKE+, but it didn't happen. Anyway, I ran 7.51km   39'39"   5'17/km just average result..... I'm forcing myself to run 20km in less than 2hours, so far, I don't think I can make it. I must work on so hard !

My father has been hospitalized for over 4months. Almost every weekend, I used to drop by the hospital to see him. Taking care of him made me think what is important for a family. What is my sense of value? Am I evil or a good son? Nursing care seemed to me the battle of evermore for a family. You can't run away, you  must face the harsh reality which seems to last forever. And in the near future, it definitely happens to me. My turn will come. Is this what we call life? World doesn't care if I vanished. Time flies like always. I got only 30years till the end of my time. Death is right there. And the death was creeping up to my father. I must be true to myself, let my instinct tell me what to do. I will follow. Today, my father  got out of the hospital and came back home after 4months absence. He's got back his will to live which he's once about to lose. Strong man. I'm proud of you.

 here I go. heading north this morning. speeding up to the limit on Joban HWY                                           beginning to see the sun rise i love this time of the day                                          this is the destination @ ibaraki took 1hr and a half to get here   didn't expect so many surfers due to surf competition got home @noon today, it's time to wear new shoes    so cooooool!!   whoop running running up to see kids playing soccer game nice to see my kid improving his skill , but i get irritated by his move at the same time. parents were yelling, team coaches were yelling, hey guys, chill out! Don't be so bully. i heard some bad words which i didn't wanna hear. Running back home. watching movie.. ..ZODIAC (david fincher) eating some udon taking a bath doing some PC stuff now, getting ready for tomorrow.

dropped by Chofu airport to have some lunch.   kids had great fun with flight simulator   we could see some airplanes come and go right in front of us while eating. just like this.  

U R legend.